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October 24, 2007
I Left a Lot of Me Down There
I left a lot of me down there
But I don't think the hole is any bigger
I just need something more
To take up the vacant inner space
I left a lot of me down there
And what I carried back evaporated
Quickly, quietly, put me back
Into the same place I was before
I left a lot of me down there
Brought back someone else's sadness
Brought back frustation
Brought back some doubt
I left a lot of me down there
Refocused some pain, freed the tears
But the pictures still look like me
Maybe even worse
I left a lot of me down there
Wish I could have left more
Don't think next time will be different
Not sure I'll ever want to know.
jak
Posted by jaselin at 12:15 PM | Comments (0)
October 19, 2007
Another Chance to Pray
It's suddenly not about what I want
But what I want for you
I can only ask, seek, knock
And hope that my heart remains true
I can be thankful every morning
For another chance to pray
I can be prayerful every evening
That the feeling won't go away
Trusting that what I want
May not be what is best
Letting you lead me
While ignoring the rest
Of the wishes and thoughts
Waiting to see
If someday I might be loved again
For simply being me.
jak
Posted by jaselin at 12:09 PM | Comments (0)
October 16, 2007
Gone Again
I feel it slipping away
Like a slow receding tide
Leaving me damp and down
The deep stain of blue
Seeping in to my skin
Like the white plaster mud
Crept into the crevices on my hands
Like the gulf water sludge
Browned the cracks in my nails.
I've been trying to recapture
The brilliant colors
To keep them in front of my heart
To keep my moment of clarity
I should let it go before I kill it
Let it fly to another soul
But, now, in desperation,
I lock my fingers anyway
Holding so tight I am sure
I'm strangling its soul.
It was all I ever wanted.
Soon, it will be gone again.
jak
Posted by jaselin at 12:04 PM | Comments (0)