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November 07, 2007
Listening
Sometimes the struggle becomes
Do I follow my heart or do I
Try and guess what God wants.
The only way I ever know
Is to see what happens afterwards
But that doesn't relieve the stress
Of having to decide now
What to do, or what not to do,
Where to go, or when to go
Or to stay and to wait, wondering
If I missed the message, wasn't
Listening hard enough, or simply
Just didn't want to hear.
jak
Posted by jaselin at 12:28 PM | Comments (0)
November 06, 2007
A Bigger Hollow
A bigger hollow just appeared
Caused by your exasperation
Communications misconstrued
It was just a simple thank you
Not a demand for something special
Not a demand for something more
I guess I'll never have your approval now
and that will always be a hole in my heart.
jak
Posted by jaselin at 12:26 PM | Comments (0)
Stone and Virtues
I dangled myself two carrots
Stone and Virtues
I've succeeded the first, never had the last
If I have to remind myself to be good
Then obviously I have failed
I'll never have your faith or joy
The best I can do is to be strong inside,
so the outside becomes believable
Even though I know, alone,
My heart will break again ech night.
What difference will it make
If I succeed the 4.3, yet never achieve
The virtue I saw in you, coveted and lost
Before I found the middle ground,
Moved over from the ditch to the pavement
Still being pulled off center,
Constantly fighting to the left
To appear as if I am getting better
Even though I know, alone
I will face myself only bitter.
jak
Posted by jaselin at 12:20 PM | Comments (0)