jakorte's blog

I didn’t know. I didn’t ask, either.
In some cases, I didn’t know enough to ask.
In some cases, I knew enough to ask but wasn’t really concerned about the answer.
This isn’t a complaint; just self-observation.

Questions I asked; Answers I received:
Where are we staying? Community UMC, Fond du Lac, WI
How many people are on this team? 12
What will we be doing? Flood recovery, mucking, mold remediation

Questions that did not occur to me to ask:
Where will we sleep? In the sanctuary of Community UMC. (In GOD’s aisles?)
Where will we shower? Public Pool showers, bathing suit required (Didn’t know to bring one.)
What are the demographics of this group of people? 6 adults, 6 youth (50% youth!)
What will others be doing? (I imagined a team this small would all be working at one site.)

Because I know myself, I am aware that had I known the exact demographics of this group, I may have been tempted to decline the invitation. Boy, would I have missed out. 4 thirteen year olds, 1 sixteen year old and 1 ten year old just blew me away with their deep faith and dedication.

Before I embarked on this mission, I wrote a pre-ramble. “I have fewer expectations. That is to say, I’m not projecting: I’m accepting that this time will be different, and looking forward to experiencing those differences."

So, even though I’m tempted to add a few things to my list of queries for the next go-round, I might not do that. It goes against my nature to not question, but then at this point my journey, it is my very nature that I am attempting to modify. I think I’ll just leave myself a little more open to the GOD force, and see where it moves me.

jak