August 05, 2008
Unsuccesses: A Personal Experience
False starts, confusion, frustration.
My own expectations let me down.
I need to clarify my own boundaries and roles.
I need to not react to the drama.
I need to assert my desire to not mediate, and then follow through on my convictions.
Not being able to completely finish the job.
Not “reaching" anyone.
Not being able to perform tasks assigned.
Exhaustion, missing coolers, worries about missing team members.
Not wanting to get up, not wanting to work.
Doing a thing so much that loses its meaning.
Contributing to distraction of job progress.
Loss of focus, challenges bringing up emotions.
Having to give up because of personal issues.
Got lax with protocol:
Had a slight sunburn on my neck after yesterday’s Spiritual Care trek. Wore a higher necked t-shirt today, and a baseball cap. Stayed in the shade as much as possible. Humidity made me sweat, which made me itch, which led to swiping my neck with my gloved hand after mixing the sanitizing solution. A couple of minutes later, I realized my error and rinsed. I had one packet of antibiotic left and used the whole thing. But, it was too late. Even though I kept rinsing with cold water all day, I still developed a blistering rash.
Posted by jaselin at August 5, 2008 01:04 PM