jakorte's blog

I feel I am fighting a losing battle with the boxes.
Every item is a memory, and needs to be put in exactly the right permanent place.

But each place touches the other and like a domino effect I find myself saying, “If I put this here, I can put that there, but then those other things will have to move.” And I stand there holding whatever it is, turning circles in my mind, stationery, stuck to the freshly cleaned carpet, embedding foot prints I know will need to be brushed away later.

16 hours = 8 unpacked boxes. Did it take me this long to pack? I don't remember.... Isn’t that odd? I can’t touch the last few weeks in my memory. Too much concentration or too much autopilot sail-thru don’t-stop-to-think?

I can’t find a permanent place for anything, so I wander until I find a cabinet, or shelf, or closet; anywhere I can lose that piece of the puzzle for a while. I’m becoming uncomfortable; nothing seems right or organized or anything like I had imagined.

I’m relieved to find a box of books. That’s a simple task with only two possibilities. There are only two book shelves; one in the office, one in the dining room. So, I start in quickly but am sidetracked by subjects. Reminders jump out at me from bold, solid spines.

My grandfather’s Festival of Prayers in Hebrew, the Holy Bible in Hebrew and English, the NIV New Message Parallel Bible, The Philosophy of House (yes, the TV show), Inspirational Thoughts for each Day of the Year, Your Best Life Now, The Unusual Suspect, A Cherokee Feast of Days, The Yoga of Sound, Why Zebras Don’t Get Ulcers, Givers Gain, What Happy People Know….

Title reminders re-point out to me what my distraction had overlooked; where I’ve been and where I want to go.
GOD does not want us to suffer over things or where to place them, or at all.

So, it seems I’ve at least found a place for this reminder: I open my heart to temporary because that is all there is for now.

In this issue: Reminder, Triggers, Alan Alda, The Importance of Setting Medium-Term Goals part 1
Now posted: New Orleans, October 2009, Reunion