jakorte's blog

It seems I’ve entered an era of disappointment, not in myself for change.
It’s the disappointments I’ve inspired in others that gives me some concern, and some peace.

Standing up for myself is not always easy, and I’ve been doing a lot of that lately, more than I think I ever have before, in rapid succession. It certainly isn’t my desire to bring on disappointment, but the result of discovering my own limits, and the realities of them.

I’m not a climber; socially or professionally. I’ve never had that priority. I find a place I like and stick with it for as long as it remains comfortable. Previous minimum 7 years. Current maximum 10. I stay until the last chance of challenge is gone, and the prospects are dry to almost petrified. I suppose some could consider that point too far… I just need to be sure... and GOD smacked.

My annual physical is coming up. I’m not worried at all about the physical part. The part where they peer over the clipboard and ask if you’ve had any major changes in your life is what I’m afraid of. I wonder how many checkmarks it takes before you are relegated to mandatory counseling? I don’t need counselling. No, don’t argue… won’t do you any good.

I’ve reached this place through hard personal work and I like it here. I had that little epiphany last week when I lost my computer to a virus for a few evenings. Thanks to my friends who have lovingly sucked me into the Facebook gaming abyss, I not only changed my home, my job and my age, I also became a café owner, farmer, and a frontier gal. I finally gave up the mall store... sort of.

Escapism aside the point here is this:
While it’s true the grass isn’t always greener on the other, sometimes it is.
The only way to find out is the change your perspective.
Letting GOD move you out of where you are isn’t always a smooth, quick or painless process.
But it seems to be working out ok for me.

Psalm 23:2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures; He leadeth me beside still waters.

In this issue: Greenery, Chlorophyll, Job Burn Out, Escapism
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