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I began taking a rather free-form class a few weeks ago. The premise is to exercise our writing skills with 10 and 30 minute free-writes. We started with lists –which you would think would be easy for me. More than once, I was stumped.

Some of the participants mentioned a routine of writing three free-write pages every morning. I thought it would make more sense to do that at night, after a day of events had passed. But that didn’t work out so well. My cramped writing fingers flustered along spewing row after row of complaints and negativity.

I reconsidered the morning pages, and perhaps making the exercise a devotional – a way to “positize” my day from the start. Truthfully, though the words whirled through my head, I never got them down on paper. It’s hard to do that in the shower, and by the time I got out, I’d be in GO mode. The good news is that I would also be in a more GOD mode. That’s something that I’ve truly needed these past few weeks.

Through the evening exercises, I noticed that I was unhappy. At least, I thought I was unhappy. I am now unhappier. Well, maybe that’s not accurate either. I have unhappier moments. Mostly, I am peaceful. At least, so far this morning I’m peaceful.

Whether I’m at peace with it all, or just at peace with the current GO mode, it’s hard to tell. So, I concentrate on the GOD mode. I’m ok enjoying the sunshine, drinking coffee, and keeping company with Elvis.