November 19, 2012
Choosing, ME Newsletter, Vol. 5, Issue 47
I had half a thought to follow along the Facebook trend with my own 30 Days of Thanks, but truly couldn’t think of anything other than super simple non-exciting, rather lame things. Like being glad it’s November and not freezing because it keeps the heating bill lower. That’s good for my budget.
I suppose I am thankful I still have a roof over my head even though I am running in the red, and will be until January when the flex spending deductions cease. Glad I did the implant thing last year while I could still get tax break on the $5,000.00 max I contributed. There ya go…something else to be thankful for. Hey, I’ve got a streak of two reasons goin’ here.
Seems everything I am thankful for is colored by or drawn from a misery or miserable circumstance. Don’t think that’s what the exercise is about. Do you remember those 3-3-30 booklets I handed out when the midweek encouragement was young? It wasn’t an easy task then, either. Three things you are thankful for, three things you did well, for thirty days. I searched mine out. A lot of mundane stuff made my list. Thankful for: my alarm went off, coffee, the van pool. Did: laundry, had the gumption to go through the mail, and tread-milled. Yeah, it was equally as hard then. And I didn’t exactly make all thirty days. Now, I’m watching posts and wondering if I am the only one struggling. I want to be thankful, but apparently not enough.
I wish I had the kind of wonderment thankfulness of my 8 year old niece who when told she could wear whatever she wanted on her birthday, shrieked in delight, "I can wear anything I want - from my entire closet!” "I’m trying to imagine myself, 6:30 am on Monday, excitedly entering my walk-in closet and happily declaring, “I can wear anything I want -in this entire closet!" I normally buy into that visualization thing – the one that’s seen me through more than a few tough spots. If I can imagine it, I can do it. Unfortunately, I can’t imagine it.
So, I now know what’s missing in my world of thankfulness; everything, and every chance to be amazed by every choice in every moment. Choosing which cup to coffee, choosing which coat climb into, choosing chores of my own free will.
Yeah, that’s a good start. Choosing to be thankful I am able choose.
Posted by jaselin at November 19, 2012 06:12 PM