April 09, 2013
Wickity Wak, ME Newsletter, Vol. 6, Issue 15
Wickity Wickity Wak!
13 is an interesting age between silly and seriousness and the switch flips rapidly. Approaching 13 x 3.8462 (not exactly, but close enough) it’s getting easier to be silly.
After all… why not? I think I’ve earned it. Through seriousness and struggling, it’s been chasing me for years. I’ve let it catch up to me once in a while, and it’s always felt good. Still, I’ve always stepped away from foolishness for the chase. I’ve been chasing success for years. That tunnel isn’t exactly straight, though.
Each time I believe I am about to step into that end-place glow, I find myself at a bend staring at a cleverly placed corner mirror that was only ever promising something much further down the line. It’s good to aim for something but the prize can’t be found at an ever moving end.
I’ve adjusted. I no longer care how far away the light is at the end of the tunnel. I can see it there, and that is all that matters. I’ll get there when I get there. And, when I get there, well, then, I will have arrived. Truly, there is no need to rush, which leaves way more time to be silly.
Anyway, back to 13 – the former age of creating cassette tapes of pretend radio shows, interviews and commercials and theme songs, giggling when we came up with new ideas, laughing until we can’t breathe when we mess up our previously awesome rehearsal. Not that much has changed, except now I’m re-embracing my inner 13 alongside a real 13. We’re recording original songs and ringtones on phones. The giggling and laughter remains the same, and that in its own right is quite a success.
Posted by jaselin at April 9, 2013 05:44 PM