September 10, 2013
Define, ME Newsletter, Vol. 6, Issue 37
This week’s newsletter comes from an interesting place; the present. This is what I was worried about.
I’ve been preoccupied with life and problems. I’ve run out of interesting notes-to-self for later exploration. I’ve run out of tid-bits I can spin. I’ve been throwing out awkward poetry instead; metered struggling along after a long, blank 2012.
I haven’t run out of complaints; just people willing to listen to them. In person, on the phone, in texts, in and out of context, I’ve been hearing it a lot – no one wants to hear it. Somehow I keep coming across articles; listening to sermons and song lyrics. I keep seeing signs and sayings; on calendars and road sides and Facebook. All telling me I can’t be who I am.
One more flash played out today from a perpetual spiral calendar at the chiropractic sign-in.
“To be truly happy, be willing to give up your ego stories and stop identifying with the self that “has been wronged,” “did not get the love,” “failed at something,” and “was once rejected.” These past experiences do not define you.”
Half of my heart felt enough of god-smack to ask for a copy of the page.
The other half stands firm in the belief that they do.
Six years in, and I’m lost. 665 total posts, not including this one.
I guess I’ve got a week to define how this is going to go… perpetually or not.
Posted by jaselin at September 10, 2013 06:39 PM