January 14, 2010
Ok, so there we were – 20 of us looking around a little sheepishly.
We all knew why we were there. At the heart of the matter is a lack of something.
Lack of education, lack of control, lack of support.
For some it will be learning to overcome bad habits.
For some it will be a battle against a weak will.
For some it will be an incentive of accountability.
So, geared up and anxious, it was disappointing to discover that we would not be put on trial right away. Especially since quite a few of us ate our last supper of indulgence the night before.
Nope, the real effort begins in exactly one week. Or does it?
Do I jump in anyway with my whole heart right now?
Or maybe I should ease myself into the situation?
Or maybe I’ll just have another week of last suppers….
The last option really isn’t an option, of course. That would be adding damage to damage, and then having to take a much longer walk back. Groan.
Jumping in isn’t the most appealing idea, either. I want credit for my hard work and proof of my success! Sigh.
I guess I’ll start reasonably, then. Something I should have begun at once, as soon as I began slowly adding pebbles, which have now turned into burdensome stones.
The good news is that I have decided to push forward despite obstacles – physical and mental.
The better news is that I can reeducate myself, redevelop my wicked will for which I am well known, accept help where my weaknesses lie, and encourage others as well.