October 13, 2009
slidell
sounds of construction voices,
reverse warning beeps,
traffic, rustling breezes,
birds and katydids, giving advice,
sounds of life
so different from 3 years ago,
or 2 years ago, or even last year.
For some, this is
their version of awful – but handle-able,
for me, this is
a happier ending
even though we are just beginning.
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September 30, 2009
Three Years
Three years,
maybe a million miles of tears
don’t know for sure, I lost count,
so back again, on the road to when
and maybe where, I can be not me,
for while - not without you,
for three years.
Posted by jaselin at 09:07 PM | Comments (0)
September 22, 2009
Details
Grassy center bunches arc’d, lower fall bursts of cranberry,
sunset and sunshine yellow mums, gracefully announcing graduations
blooming into dying colors; center, repeated left and right, echoing
swells of Michigan hills, anticipating colorful comings, brightening
landscapes before the winter drabs on into the flat lined
white months ahead, silently promising symphonies of sound,
and temporary rebirths of color.
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August 31, 2009
My Monumental Effort
My monumental effort
On a daily basis
Exhausting prayers
Waver in effectiveness
Morning’s renewed hope
Depleted by evening
Weary of trying
Disappointed, crushed
Every time I offer it up
Every time I give it away
I get back exactly
What I don’t want.
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August 25, 2009
I Cry
I cry when I am angry
and when I am mad and
when I am frustrated
but not when I am sad;
Tears of joy have been rare
take a look now
linger just a moment spare
and look again
with sweet surprise
be glad to see them there.
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August 18, 2009
Poetry for Motion
Road Music, North Carolina 2009.
Sort of poetry in near constant motion.
Alphabetically. (According to itunes.)
4Lyn, Aaron Neville, Aaron Shust, Al Hill & The Love Butlers, Al Jolson, Alison Krauss, Andy Kim, Augustana, Avril Lavigne, The Band, Billy Joe Shaver, Blue October, Blue Rodeo, Bob Woodruff, Bon Jovi, Boston, Bowling for Soup, Boys Like Girls, Brad Paisley, Brandon Heath, Breaking Benjamin, Brother Phelps, Bryan White, Camouflage, Carrie Underwood, Casting Crowns, Cheap Trick, Chicago, Chris Sligh, Chris Tomlin, The Church, Clay Walker, Clueless, Colbie Callat, Counting Crows, Crowded House, Daniel Bedingfield, Daniel Doss Band, Daughtry, Del Amitri, The Delevantes, Dierks Bentley, Difford & Tilbrook, Dillon Dixon, Dolly Parton, Duran Duran, The Eagles, Elvis Costello, Evanescence, Fabolous, The Fat Lady Sings, Finger Eleven, Fish, Foo Fighters, George Strait, Goo Goo Dolls, Good Charlotte, Guster, Guy Clark, Hanson, The Higher, Hoobastank, Incubus, James Blunt, James House, Jamie Hartford, Jeremy Camp, The Jesus and Mary Chain, Joan Armatrading, John Butler Trio, John Waite, John Wesley Harding, Jordin Sparks, Josh Groban, Josh Turner, Joss Stone, Journey, Junior Senior, Keane, Keith Anderson, Kelly Clarkson, Kenny Chesney, Klaxons, Lee Ann Womack, Lifehouse, Linkin Park, Live, Los Lonely Boys, Louis Armstrong, Mandy Barnett, Marillion, Marion Raven, Maroon 5, Marshall Crenshaw, Martina McBride, Marty Wilson-Piper, Mary J. Blige, Matchbox 20, Mercy Me, Metallica, Michael Buble, Michael Kroll, MidSouth, Miley Cyrus, Modest Mouse, Montgomery Gentry, Motion City Soundtrack, Muse, Mute Math, Newsboys, Nichole Nordeman, Nickleback, O.A.R., Ok Go, Paramore, Pat Green, Paul Westerberg, Perry Farrell, Pink, Point of Grace, Powderfinger, The Pretenders, Randy Travis, Rascal Flatts, Reba McEntire, REM, REO Speedwagon, Rhianna, Rob Thomas, Robbie Robertson, The Rocket Summer, Rodney Atkins, Rolling Stones, Ronan Keating, Ruben Studdard, Rush of Fools, Sailcat, Sanctus Real, Sara Bareilles, Savage Garden, Sheryl Crow, Silversun Pickups, Simon & Garfunkle, Sister Hazel, Smash Mouth, The Smithereens, Snow Patrol, Squeeze, Steve Winwood, Steven Curtis Chapman, Steven Kilbey, Sugarland, Test Your Reflex, Then Jericho, Third Day, Three Days Grace, Toby Keith, tobyMac, Train, U2, Van Morrison, The View, Wet Wet Wet, Wilson Phillips, The Wreckers, Yo-Yo Ma, Zac Brown Band.
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August 04, 2009
value
I shouldn’t have been
so easily convinced
that I could not
place a true value
on myself based on
a notion that none are
surpassing, ever.
So, it’s my fault
the anger hangs on
and it’s my fault
I cannot push it away,
I do not want release it,
I will not go on
Above or beyond.
I’ll carry the lesson
for at least a year
until I have the chance
to expose my true impression
the value of contributions
documented, real, exemplary,
worthy.
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June 23, 2009
Only More
GOD forgives us
the very second we sin,
but the consequences
are ours to keep.
Our peers
aren’t always so forgiving.
Even harder,
is forgiving ourselves.
Confession takes courage,
so I give it admiration,
and respect.
I can’t love you any less for it.
I can only love you more.
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June 04, 2009
done
I thought maybe
if I kept saying it
it would come true.
I can’t decide
if I really don’t care
or if I care so much
that it’s just
shutting me down.
I know there are
things I must
take care of, and
I know that
eventually, I will.
Doing those things
would imply
hope though, and
I can’t afford that
right now.
I need to center
on what has to be
set in motion,
done, then finished.
Like me, just
done.
Posted by jaselin at 07:21 AM | Comments (0)
May 14, 2009
perpetual curiosity
Perpetual curiosity
A path by itself
Stumbling into
Ideas
That snowball
Freeze and retain
Or drift away
Like desert sand;
Holding attention
Or not.
Still, always finding
That seeking
Is the answer
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May 05, 2009
not, just
not scared, just wary
not closed, just guarded
not worried, just wondering
not announced, just intuitive
not mentioned, just implied
not changed, just different
not noticeably, just imperceptibly
not sure, just hopeful
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April 30, 2009
hesitation
about my hesitation
please don’t think i’m
not right there with you
i do know what i want
with you, there’s more
i want to know, even
more i want to share, even
more i want to give
i'm still looking for
the rewind button
so i can ask
the questions I should have
for us to share
the path we could have
suffering now, hard
to convince myself
all is not lost
on account of
my hesitation.
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April 23, 2009
wanting less
Wistful
Wasteful
Wanting
Where can I go
from here?
How can I explain
wanting less
and wanting more?
When does waiting
become just waiting?
Without a purpose,
but with a plan;
it only seems
that way to you.
The reasons why
wounds appear;
I suspect you know.
Worthlessness;
Worthiness?
No, simply
Wanting less.
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April 07, 2009
like i'm you
2/13/09
Sometimes, it’s like I’m you
Watching me fall apart
Seeing it through your eyes
Feeling it through your heart
I don’t know how
I’m supposed to make this work
I don’t know how to show you
What it’s really worth.
Posted by jaselin at 01:24 PM | Comments (0)
Peripheral Presence
I don’t agree that
Being a peripheral presence is cowardly
Can there not be an acceptable grace in quiet ministry?
Can it just be that the reason I am here is because
of my love, my strength, my faith in GOD?
I do believe that
I will see you rise to be who you will be
through HIM, sharing my belief in your worthiness,
as a strong peripheral presence;
and without a doubt, the whole of my heart.
Posted by jaselin at 01:20 PM | Comments (0)
April 03, 2009
even standing
Dark day
even standing
in the sun’s wake
doesn’t help;
a cool breeze
caressing as
a shiver,
I shrug it off,
at least
for the moment
focused
on simply standing
until tomorrow
for the promises of
warmer waves
of sleep
and grace.
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March 17, 2009
take it
i can take it.
and i can take it from you.
if it’s a disaster
i can repair it.
if it’s a problem
i can solve it.
if it’s broken
i can fix it.
i can make it better.
as long as it belongs to you.
if it belongs to me
it’s not repairable,
not solvable,
not fixable,
not possible.
and will stay that way
unless you can take it.
and then take it from me.
jak
Posted by jaselin at 07:33 AM | Comments (0)
March 13, 2009
under another
Hopeful and mischievous
Uncomfortable and inspired
I know it will all be ok
If I can keep patience
If I can keep focused
Alaska vs. Dallas
Very different assignments
Neither of which
Are easy fits and
Neither of which
Are easily working out
But at least I’m thinking
About the opportunities
About the differences
About the place, and places
About the steps, and stepping
About the way, and ways
I might be more
I might matter more
In one space, than the other
Under one circumstance
Or under another.
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March 03, 2009
Doesn't Really Hurt
It doesn’t really hurt
Until you figure out
What you’re missing
Where you should have been
Which opportunities are gone
And cannot be replaced
It doesn’t really hurt
Until you’re forced to
Stand right there
Watching from a distance
Knowing you’ll have to
Walk away soon
It doesn’t really hurt
For very long once
You’ve decided to
Turn away, never go back
Drive home to nothing
And stay there
And it doesn’t really
Hurt anymore
Once you’re back
In that quiet place
Safe, where you know
It won’t hurt
Posted by jaselin at 01:56 PM | Comments (0)
February 19, 2009
Good for you
Good for you
I know it’s hard
To put yourself
Out there.
Been there
So I do
Understand.
Be proud.
Be strong.
Keep your head up
And on straight.
When you invite
The storm
You’ve got to expect
The rain and the clouds,
And you've got to believe
In the rainbow
That will follow.
jak
Posted by jaselin at 07:20 AM | Comments (0)
February 06, 2009
Not an option
Falling apart
is not an option.
In order to fall apart
I require that someone
be within an arm’s length
to pick up my pieces
and since at the moment
there is no one around
for miles
I just keep going.
So keep on
admiring me
from afar
because
if you get
too close
you just may
end up
being
the one.
jak
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January 21, 2009
extremely thin line
For the moment
it's an extremly thin line
I am balancing on
"I surrender"
is getting closer to
"I'm giving up"
I'm not as strong as I thought I was
I'm not as strong as you think I am
I'm no longer remotely as I was
I'm not who I ever wanted to be, either
I can't get comfortable
I can't afford to sway
I can't afford to stay
on this tightrope walk
it's a long way back
to either end
when you're stuck in the middle
sooner or later
I expect
an accidental angel feather
will knock me over
and knock me off
my own
extremely thin line.
Posted by jaselin at 08:32 PM | Comments (0)
January 19, 2009
just want, once
January 19, 2009
I just want to hear it once
Softly whispered
In a way I’ve never heard before
I just want to see it once
In your eyes
Something I can recognize
I just want to feel it once
A reverent touch
That conveys it all
I just want it once
All of you.
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