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April 04, 2007
this distance is decay
i really never thought that distance would take such a toll on a wonderful but
really confusing friendship that i can never get over
i can't imagine why distance and time can force almost a sense of forgetting of one of the most important people in your life.
why does this have to happen
i can't stand it
i wish it was like how it used to be
i haven't really thought about it until now when i just was in contack with the person 10 minutes ago
it was the best half hour that i have had in a while
and i felt at home
and normal
but at the same time, feel so freaking confused and awful
for not spending every single second of the time that i have
with that person
to somewhat make that last moment seem worth something
because you know it won't be the same ever again
god i miss him
and i feel as though has has moved onto new friends,
not that he has forgotten me,
but that he has known that i moved away
and wouldn't be there
he accepted it
and dealt with it
i have just discovered it
and am dealing with it
and its the hardest thing i've had to deal with
in a really long time.
i hope i can get through it
i really do
i dont need sympahty please.
i just wanted to write it down somewhere
because it makes me feel better
rather than to keep it in my head
i guess i need to go home
and get a hug
maybe he will still remember that
Posted by merecole at April 4, 2007 11:25 PM