February 16, 2006
So I Guess You Won't Have Trouble Remembering Me Someday, Someday Yeah
What a neat little blog.
*Warning:* Angsty entry ahead. You don't have to read it.
So Jason and I are officially on a break. Wow. Is it wrong to feel like a failure? Is it wrong to be excited about going to Chicago this summer or getting an apartment next year? No, it's not like he's dead. But it's weird, I just.. really hope it works. I would want to die if, after all that, we just fell apart or never talked again. It's agony not to talk to him, really. And I never realized it. I guess that's what the break is for, right? I want to appreciate him, and I want this to work. So it has to. I hope we don't break eachother's hearts. He means too much to me to go down like that.. like so petty. I want to be his friend, if nothing else....
I guess it's not that angsty but I've been complaining to the same ppl over n over again and I'm sure that they're annoyed as all hell and it makes me uncomfortable to know people dislike me for any reason. So I had to resort to this little-known, probably never-read, blog. So I'm pretty much talking to strangers and myself.
SOMEONE TELL ME THAT THIS WILL NOT END IN TRAGEDY.
i just really dont want to deal with that.
Posted by paulsona at February 16, 2006 09:14 PM