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February 25, 2008
two more days until leaving AA
suffocating.
on pretzels.
i've been eating pretzels pretty much nonstop for the past seven hours.
Posted by ubinli at 07:11 PM
February 24, 2008
hey hello
hey buddy. you don't say "you make me laugh" "hey love" "you're the best" "love ya!" "i miss you" to your ex-girlfriend's best friend, jackass. it makes me angry that it still hurts a little, which implies that i still care a little. which is not true or else i'm going to go step on a turtle. which i won't because the turtle did nothing to me. arghhhh. sad sad oh so sad. i want to step on his balls. ugh.
just peeved because i'm bored to hell and not as productive as i want to be. and cody broke his collarbone so he can't go snowboarding with us. bummer.
laaame so laaaame. lets be nuns.
ooooooooook chocolate > cigarettes
Posted by ubinli at 04:00 PM
February 22, 2008
Ira Lunan Ferguson
let's get to business.
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so who is this man? i've yet to read his book, Facing Reality, which is currently in my posession. i think i'll have to read parts of it over spring break.
he's a man who, over the heartbreak of being rejected by his own kid (Howard University), decided that he wanted to be recognized, to be known, to leave his mark before his death.
Posted by ubinli at 09:56 AM
hunger
god i'm hungry. busy day? busy busy day?
i'm gonna be bored but hopefully productive for five days.
alright i feel like i should compensate for my few missed days.
i think...after a slight emotional jolt i have the tendency to withdraw from transferring
ok not a good time to think. time to listen to phoooebeee.
Posted by ubinli at 09:24 AM
February 19, 2008
polar bear
Posted by ubinli at 12:30 PM
haircut
it looks basically the same except shorter bangs. yay. resisted urge to chop it all off. when summer comes.
happy happy be happy yay!
Posted by ubinli at 11:16 AM
February 17, 2008
egocentric bitch
why do you think the world exists just for you? that everybody is trying to copy you? do you even realize how much you copy from others and basically deceive others into thinking it's your artistic creativity, your skills? i admit, without any problem, that you have a brilliant personality, and that you are unique, popular, and stands out. but that doesn't mean we all want to be you. you're not that cool. i feel like i'm betraying you. but damn it woman, realize that you are judgmental of others, but not of yourself. you need to learn how to constructively criticize, instead of rolling your eyes and putting others down.
Posted by ubinli at 05:43 PM
fucking mental
all of us.
Posted by ubinli at 02:00 AM
fog grog hog sog frog this is why i wont be successful
my brain doesn't function properly.
i can't think
i can't work towards the things i want
i have no ambition
i have no obsession
i have no passion
or if i do i seemed to have misplaced them somewhere. it seems like i had more interest in things when i was younger and even more idiotic. symptoms of depression? hahah funny. no. depression is for emo kids.
at times i think i have the world figured out. but i know i must be mistaken because the world doesn't want to be figured out.
Posted by ubinli at 01:41 AM
February 16, 2008
i talks to myself
gloria stop doing weed. but if i were with her i'd prolly be next to her. well duh. gawd such bad influences.
sore ffrom going to the gym for the first time in ages. good times.
lets not sleep tongith!
oh but we must!
he restocked
Posted by ubinli at 11:15 PM
February 15, 2008
cone dip again yay
when it comes down to it i still hate vday. over it now.
argh brain freeze. ouuch.
i want.
yes.
i need to work harder.
i have a plan for our future. we should all just buy a two story space, remodel it into studio slash apartment. and be happy.
Posted by ubinli at 06:41 PM
never ever satisfied. ever ever ever.
i want to die. just so i wouldn't want anything.
i believe that if we have souls, it would simply dissipate when we die.
or that we don't have souls and once we die, nothing happens. the world goes on. i want to know what it's like. but it's too early. too early too early too early.
it's so painful. so much more when it's someone else's pain. my brother isn't talking to my mother. so what you say? so i feel my mother's pain. what did she say? i dont have a son in him. she sounded so sad, so tormented. you know that feeling in your nose when you start to tear up. it hurts her. it hurts me. i wonder if he can feel it.
i'm going to hell for sometime thinking that if people were dead it wouldn't be so painful. i'm wrong. i don't want to feel like my heart is being torn apart.
i'm love retarded. seriously. communication retarded. i think it's genetic.
Posted by ubinli at 12:13 AM
February 14, 2008
happy valentine
give me lilies.
this obsession.
Posted by ubinli at 09:17 PM
February 13, 2008
list
flight tickets
carpool or fly?
senegal schedule
summer schedule
bring art supplies home?
do fafsa before friday
behind on work, especially cfc. what am i doing. research.
just do it.
what is a lie?
Said with the intent to deceive
1.Name a quote from the song you're listening to.
How are you feeling? I am fine
Ok so it's not a song, it's the philosophy Professor talking
2. Do your jeans have rips, holes and tears in them?
The little holes were already there, the rips at the bottom I made.
3.Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
yes. aruuugh.
4. What are you seriously wearing?
jeans, pacsun sweater, shoes that i'm killing
5. When is the last time you saw the person you like/LIKED?
an hour ago
6. Ever kissed any of your friends?
Yessir. I kiss people when i'm drunk.
7. Describe the last time you were injured?
bruised fucking tailbone. pain.
8. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night?
haven't for a while
9. Think of all your exes. Would you take any of them back?
no.
10. On your "lazy days" what would you be doing?
sleeping, gaining flab in front of the tv
11. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in an elevator with?
probably Tina
12. Most recent movie you have watched in theaters?
Juno, good movie
13. Who was the last person to slap your butt?
probably jim, then he ran away
14. Favorite toy as a child?
uh. uhhh. clay?
15. Do you own a pair of Converse?
fake Converse >:D i plan on getting a pair sometime though
16. Who did you copy and paste this survey from?
Rene
17. Do you eat cookie dough?
yessir
18. Have you ever kicked a vending machine?
definitely
19. When's the last time you had gummy bear?
too long. i had gummi worms a couple weeks back
20. What color are your bedsheets?
white
21. Do people consider you smart?
"University of Michigan?! Wow!"
"...Oh. School of Art."
22. What temperature is it outside right now?
too too cold
23. Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone?
maybe for a bit
24. Could you live without a computer?
yes
25.Do you have an iPod?
yup
26.What movie do you know every line to?
none
27. Do u have butterflies?
once in a while
28.Last person you hugged?
jim
29.Had a Long Distance Relationship?
no, don't want to
30.Who was the last person you held hands with?
jim
31. At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender?
can't remember
33.How do you handle a rainy day?
be depressed and cold
34.Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you?
no, unless i'm in a mental state of observation
35. Are you cold?
a bit chilly
36.Do you have a lot to learn?
yes
37. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true?
sure
39. Are you a patient person?
no, thought i may act like it
40.Are you an impatient person?
yes
41.Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers?
shrug
42.When do you feel your life energy is the strongest?
what life energy. i'm sucked dry.
43. Are you with someone?
my entire philosophy class
44.Next time you'll take a shower?
sometime
45. Is anyone on your bad side now?
my bladder
46. What jewelry are you wearing?
hourglass necklace, three pairs of earrings
47. Who's your favorite singers/Band?
n/a
48. Next Kiss?
asap
49. Do you watch Grey's Anatomy?
used to
50. How do people spell your name?
yubin, ubin
51. Would you wear your boyfriends/girlfriends clothes?
they're too big, but maybe
52.Hows your life going as of right now?
busy yet unproductive
53.Do you think you're ugly?
i hope not
54.How's your heart?
hungry
55.Last line of a song you heard?
don't remember, something Evanescence
56. What are you doing tomorrow?
class, homewo- fuck it's Valentine's day
57.Can you honestly say your happy with who you are?
no
58.Is it cute when a boy calls you babe?
not usually, but it's worthy of a condescending giggle
59. What did you do last night?
paint that damn op art painting that i'm never going to finish
60. Will you keep your last name when you get married?
probably not. maybe i'll just combine it cus its so short anyway
62. When is the last time you left your house?
house? more than a month ago
63.Look through the 2 nearest windows what do you see?
snow and brick
64.Who is someone you have drifted from?
Evaline, Mindy, Julie, Skinny, Rani, the list goes on
65.Who's the last person that you felt stalked by?
uh. this guy. that i dont want to talk about.
66. Do you like anyone?
yes
67.Do they know?
yes
69. Do you have a dishwasher?
not at the moment
70. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
myself?
71. Would you survive in prison?
depends on the prison
72. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you?
yes pls!
73.Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
maybe but dont remember
74.Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
no.
75.Who is one of your good friends?
Gloria, Tina
76.What can you not wait to do?
sleep
77. Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
some korean pop artist or something like that
78. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
too lazy to count
79. Whats the last thing you ate & why?
orange juice and a blueberry muffin for breakfast
80. Are you a friendly person?
of course
81. Have you ever kissed a person with the name that starts with an 'K'?
technically no.
82. Where is your next vacation?
spring break to Dewitt
83.What's the worst thing someone can do to you?
torture
84. What's your middle name?
n/a
85. Where is your cell phone?
in my backpack. i think i should get a new one soon
86. How are you sitting?
on my ass in a desk-chair
87. Whats your favorite brand of ice cream?
Ben and Jerry's creme brulee
88. Ever been to Georgia?
no
89. Do you flirt a lot?
no
90.What do you call your parents?
ma, ba
91. What irritates you most on the internet?
idiots
92. Do you watch movies with your parents?
sometimes
93. Can you pop and lock?
what?
94. What is in your fridge?
peach schnapps, milk, cheese
95. Why would you go to jail?
i wouldn't, they couldn't catch me
96. Who did you last have sexual relations with?
uh.
97. What is your favorite position?
one that's not too much work?
98. Have you ever left the country?
yes
99. How many beers on the wall?
none
100. Can you cat call?
not really?
Posted by ubinli at 01:34 PM
8:30
jan-henrik's class does not suit me well. i can only handle jan once a week, twice is too much for my brain and confidence. oh i'm tired.
Posted by ubinli at 01:28 AM
February 11, 2008
cough cough hack hack
cheez-it is a snack and should not be considered a meal.
Posted by ubinli at 03:26 PM
falling back on this everyday blogging thing
and i was doing so well.
i think i'm going to drop by rochester before africa in may just to see gloria for a bit before heading out again. i feel like maybe i should spend more time at home. at the same time. i dont know.
Posted by ubinli at 12:00 AM
February 09, 2008
headache
from these headphones.
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saturday blue apple's actually a lot of fun. i really should cut down monday stocking time to less than four hours. it's just way too long. that's a good idea.
Posted by ubinli at 05:43 PM
February 08, 2008
cookie cake
we're talking about having babies. more later.
oh moving on to erections. haha.
Posted by ubinli at 08:34 PM
need some Zs
ommmfg what am i doing. i'm scared of my own drawing. it's really really late slash really really early. brain not functioning. must sleep. omg. good night.
oh and happy chinese new years.
Posted by ubinli at 03:59 AM
February 05, 2008
house
is brilliant.
i want bubble tea.
jim is playing oblivion. brian is playing halo 2. i should do some reading. i'm so bored that i think i will. good plan ubin, good plan.
what use can torch, light, glasses be
to folk determined not to see?
Posted by ubinli at 10:19 PM
February 04, 2008
ok i'm dying
my lymph nodes are swollen, i'm dying from soreness and am desperate for a massage, my period just came, i have a headache, i can't turn my head without cringing, i have stock work until 11, i have adp essay to finish revising and citing. that one girl from the meeting is nice, but so damn obnoxious. there are no fucking mambas in Senegal stfu.
i wanna just crawl in bed and sleep. shit.
Posted by ubinli at 07:32 PM
February 03, 2008
gurgle.
gurglegurglegurgle.
omg. i read all three of the Uzumaki series and now when i see spirals i think of it and get a little freaked out. haha. that's one good horror graphic novelist. i started reading his other series about the walking fish and stuff at the library. i felt like i could actually smell the stench. ew...gross.
Posted by ubinli at 10:38 AM
February 02, 2008
silliness for procrastination
long long long boring list that no one wants to read.
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A. Right-handed.
Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
A. ...No.
Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
A. A large boxful of candy bars and whatnot.
Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
A. I slipped in a pool once and got a concussion.
RANDOMOLOGY
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
A. I honestly can't decide. I guess I wouldn't mind knowing.
Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
A. If I knew what name I'd want, I'd do it already.
Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
A. Black.
Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
A. Don't think so.
Q: Do you smile often?
A. Sure.
Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Yessir.
Q. Do you hold grudges?
A. I'm rather bad at holding grudges because I forget things really easily.
Q. Who do you tell your secrets to?
A. What secrets. I have no secrets. Gloria.
DAREOLOGY
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
A. Definitely.
Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
A. No. Nononono.
Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
A. YES PLEASE.
Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
A. Sure. ARTISTIC NUDITY SUCKA :D
Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
A. No.
Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
A. Hard to decide. Depends on the human.
DUMBOLOGY
Q: What is in your left pocket?
A: Lint.
Q: Do have a hardwood or carpet floor in your house?
A: Both.
Q: Could you live with roommates?
A: Yes, since I have one now and will have two next year.
Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
A: Two.
Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
A: Never...?
Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
A: Rich.
FAVORITOLOGY
Q: Number?
A: 7.
Q: Season?
A: Fall.
Q. TV show?
A. House and Food Network.
Q. Flavor of gum?
A. Mango?
CURRENTOLOGY
Q: Missing someone?
A: Sure.
Q: Mood?
A: Unmotivated.
Q: Listening to?
A. The wind outside.
Q: Watching?
A. Macbook screen.
Q: Worrying about?
A: Catching up on homework.
Q: First place you went this morning?
A: Shower.
Q: What cant you wait to do?
A. Get shit done. For Blue Apple to open so I can eat.
Q. What do you dread?
A. Being a total failure.
Q: What will you do when you answer this question?
A: See what else I can do to pretend that I'm being productive.
Posted by ubinli at 01:32 PM
February 01, 2008
lardy lard lard
lard. OMG. i need to commit to the gym. i need to get rid of this lard and regain some muscle mass. bejesus, this is no joke! horrid horrid. i need to get in shape again.
oh so many evil evil thoughts going through my head. i am ashamed.
Posted by ubinli at 12:39 AM